Letterbox

There, a letterbox.
and it is red,
it shines at sun's greet.

a firing soldier on duty,
a proud carrier of hope,

once that is what it is
to me.

Then, the letterbox.
is pale red,
washed out betrayed by the sun.

an old one wheel bike,
a passe of modernity,

there goes what it is
to me.

How i long for 'the wait',
to see the postman's face smile,
delivering his soul to me,
thankful for the joy i bring today.

this normal communication,
warmth in the sun,
needing of each other,
even for the simple ones.

we ought to be a keeper.
the smile.
in the sun.
alive.

Lost

I am sorry that you are lost.
Even more, that you like it.

**also in LostinSpace Collection

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@}~~~~~
to write or not to write?

to tell it all or sink,
keep moving against the wind,
will you not follow?

to dream or be real,
ignore that life robbed your will,
will you not fight?

to feel or be alone,
stories numbered right on your stone,
will you remember?
@} ~~~~~
to live or not to live?

to stay or run away,
to stop or constant drop,
to push or pull back in,
to pray or keep the faith,
@}~~~~~
who are you or do you know?
@}~~~~~

Laundry Day

kick myself around this apartment
painting it all in red
open up all of white windows
letting air be more than its meant

than what i needed to breathe
change my perception of
what it takes to be clean
from grieve

i'm not leaving anything behind
its a painting if i was painter
but I'll settle this ugly feeling
cause its my Laundry Day

i rather take a walk than to view
done sitting around thinking
if the coke machine decided to break
ill kiss goodbye and be on my way

to the next paying asker give it all for free
I'll say it again if ever you loose your eyes
what it takes to be clean
from grieve

is taking everything now
its a book if i was a writer
and i'm settling this ugly feeling
cause its my Laundry Day

its a splashing Sunday,
happier Monday,
funny Tues and Weds,
releasing Thursday,
the cliche Friday
with extra Saturday..
all ever after it seem
Today..
Today....my Laundry Day ;)

(**and yes...i am loving the freshness afterwards)

Take your place (it's time...)

kick it like a wild child
play it like rock & roll
feel it in like a rockstar
this is what we've been waiting for

get engaged like a bridge fireworks above it
looking down from the edge throwing all our regrets
sting your time like a bee so its hurt so we'll leave
catching up with our breathe coz we are living free

let's make us a big fire
and make the stars proud
punch a change from your brain
coz time and space is a waste

we are more than before
stronger,posed and knew more
this isnt hard to explain
step right up, it's time...

Take your place.

**wrote this sometime last month, haven't really completed.(i think).but now it seem like it is.
for now,this is it :)

~for those who need just a little push xx~

Love in J Note

i am one among the stars
i shine too
without me, one intensity is lost
leaving the night
one blank space
lifeless

i am one among the stars
i see too
below me, there's one dimming light
looking into night
shooting wishes
hope in living

i love God more
as i know less
i love God more
as i fall
i love God more
as i see distance
but i love God more
as i feel the presence
forever

i love you more
if you are for me
maybe the stars
align differently
perfectly

a useless Anger Note to the Low People

you can only wish
to have some kind of courage
you can only dream of living
like a fairy tale in a nightmare surroundings

cause you don't have what it takes to be me
you don't have the words to address the words of a king
nothing like a bug you fleet with red dots
little lightbugs with little spark

just little
cause i see through your big hat
that you forget to take off to bow
must have been your head is as little
as your little heart
that you needed to hide as low as you can

this must be said
this is a shame
but im done taking off blame from the murderer
it's time for the offender
your punishment stage is all in order

i can smile as if im nine
i could act like a ruler in my own stand
my eyes are shut, i am blind
when it comes to seeing what you hide behind
not cause i cant see right through you
it is simply that "i dont want to!"

let go of your efforts to make me small
nothing you say will make sense
cause only the true warrior see with a heart
and a rat like you wont stand a chance

so you see you cant have my pride
you cant have what you cant have
its not about luck
its about you not having any guts

cause the worthy knows that truth is rare
and only the worthy...dares!

Don't Kill The Moon

1
lying on the floor
won't make the sky fall
with the blanket on
with the saddest song
playing your mind on and on
rooted pain growing strong

***
what feel is real
don't question
even if sun up with the rain
it's still clear to see
through the breeze
that you can turn it any way around the moon
go around and be found
there's always stars shooting down
but
don't kill the moon
don't kill the moon

***

2
staring long to the space
more minutes you waste
i can swear this isn't the sight
we all wish at night
but dawn push the moon down
taking you deeper underground

3
whatever the moon want to mention
let it haze in the air
and after fog covers and torn view apart
then walk away

sept 2007

"Red Bus"

there's a little boy asking me for direction
i cant help myself but stare
wonder about the age
from his eyes

little that i say the more he shoots out confusion
he do what i do
wondering if he should ask
the next one

funny how things go
when unfamiliar stole
our precious white lies
that all is all right

did you manage to stop today
with days getting busier everyday
the ride can always be found
when you didn't come around

so take a seat
wait in line
can you make the time
for the little kid in us
riding the Red Bus

sept 2007

Dysfunctional Queen

i've been there and done that
there was you then there's regret
later i learned something right
world can reappear Mighty Might

(*)
come and see its a grandeur show
the Dysfunctional Queen let out her glow
may it blind your sight!
ill break ya with my might!
and leave you trembling wide open!

History, a mystery sometimes its trickery
what you know can never be what you see
So baby dare to touch destruction
it'll be your first construction

build your perception
darkness doesnt always hide
light at the end is not a promise
learn that her will is her lesson.

feb 8,2007
edited july 2,2007

Dream

there was a time
i thought i lost my way
looking for answers
in a familiar place

to be together forever
trying not to fall
as we fall with each other
and nothing else matters

holding hands felt so right
our life flashes across the sky
holding hands we smile at the sight
to the end of whatever

whatever turns to be over
we still try not to fall
hands starts to depart ways
about nothing that matters

then comes the time
i still lost my way
there were no answers all along
i should know
nothing live outside
a Dream.

the List

ever since this morning
the list keeps turning
changing
forcing me to fall down my knees

without a sound
it knocks me out from slumber
desperation is now gone
singing
the answering parade

how can i fight the moon and the rising sun
they agree never to let me sleep again
like a butterfly i found wonder
flying across over to be between them

without a sound
i walk away new step
awkward and familiar
sinking
rising as my armor fall off

ever since the scar speak
the list shred to pieces
hurting
healing everything, i am on my way

say way

say stay? or say hate!
say it to my one ear
say great that its too late
make,break or take
one word to save this mistake
being stupid is impossible
while you seek life for your sake
for my sake i go through it all
it's not what matters
as human as i aim to be
i am ashamed to co-exist with your existance
i write this and scream at your invincible face
"you are fake,late and never will be great!"
cause i forgave you at this precise note,
just until you reach your grave.

Impetus Rule

erase behind the center note,
split the paper in two,
half of the complications i wrote,
now clearer than when i was with you,
say it twice, more is wise,
plastic cups crushes,
i would have run foolish being nice,
my legs asleep like ashes,
no more burning,no more game,
i bang the golden cymbals,
may it caught you as you are fader,
as i have swept into motion,
my impetus,bless you,
as my sanity is now awakens.

Eye,Feel?

draw an eye,
have no fear for reflection do not lie,
it spoke;

"of the deep will not hurt,
of the dark will not swallow,
of the doom will not haunt,"

betrayal of a knife took place

eye vanish,
lost to the battalion of waves
as the sense in a senseless eye
breed vengeance through disguise

the dance will not stop!

really,reflection never lie,
spoke the eye;

"of the galaxy will i see,
of the world will i be,
of you will i seek,"

The Wall of Rose

staRe. The Wall whispers
blinK. Fear taunts
gulP. Curiousity thirst

step,slow..another

ArriVe. Curiosity bows
So Long. Fear ran away
AmaZe. The Wall pray

open,quick!..reveal!

the wall prisoned by thorns
Rose raised her palms
picking weakest feelings
of tortured aura singing

Rose traced an old place
heads rush reaching to her
Her tiny heart begin to race
her tiny palm turns gray

The Wall stand above the mountain
Singing fears of lost soldiers lost
Curious Rose sends hope in
Into them through her palm into stone

A tiny thorn kissed Rose thumb
Her whole body turns numb
The Wall cries open a thorn less space
InViting.Rose is home.

SMILE

wiggles my toes in the air
all i can do is stare
down below into your eyes
feeling so high

this abnormality
cames as a surprise to me
never knew how it comes to this
ashamed of my insanity

so i jumped off this party boat
catch a yellow safe ride
and away goes i float
into the ocean up through the air
but somehow i never feel so free
i sure smile back to me...

they say im a mess
when its time to confess
stopping the clock or break
whatever way i dont care

this loud reaction
states independence day
but i was stupid enough to hide
so i burned in my own stake

so i jumped off this party boat
catch a yellow safe ride
and away goes i float
into the ocean up through the air
but somehow i never feel so free
i sure smile back to me...

whatever gets so high
soon will have to land back
on the empty rug
a house of warm embrace

all it took just your smile for me...

(*i wrote this after i watched reruns - Smallville Season 4 : Clark Kent & Lana Lang Prom Dance)

Masquerade

masquerade

all the pretty dresses
and man's charming faces
unfortunately i'm stuck with laces
stealing smiles and blowing kisses

oh dignity it slipped out off the window
once i experience how love is
red skirts spins and shining shoes follow
golden threads on,messes quiet surface
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(*)
so you thought
the night still young
don't ever waste this delight
but don't you know
this will be pretty no more

live full tonight baby
cause tomorrow for sure
the pain will undress unmask
will you leave it all behind?
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masquerade

shining entrance up the hall
colourful gems dances below
innocence drove into the rythm
flesh in them, found coral desire

oh dreams they rush you in neverending
cause when i know less, i surrender
temptations behind the nodding angels
fantastic lies laughing to my face
(*)
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masquerade
the sensation
expectations
losing yourself is so easy
in this perfection
(*)
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Where Day Belong

where do day belong
its been too long
i haven't heard my song
oh no..now i am not strong
***
oh i've tried and i've fight and i've tried
pull me out of this tide
open the door i ain't staying no more
go to where day belong
that's where i want to be...
***
how much will time take
i feel that all is such fake
when will i get my chance
to fix all of my mistakes
***
oh i've tried and i've fight and i've tried
pull me out of this tide
open the door i ain't staying no more
go to where day belong
that's where i want to be...
***
hard i wish all is just a dream
that soon i will wake and all went away
but no,its where day belong
after we hurt then we start to move on
***

crash and burn

insanity feeds anamoly
less than that
it prisoned our intellection

feel free...

cause time will not tell
the crosses that you would dare
when death whispers...
it caught you,defenseless
crashed and burned...

so bind time defeat arrogance
faster than light
fallen by the darkman's artifice

feel you...

cause time will not tell
the crosses that you would dare
when death whispers...
it ripped you,effortless
crashed and burned...

awake and decide
you'll never loose your faith
fist yourself hard
to fall in the land of grace
unveil,extricate and rectify...
crash and burn...

cause time barely unravels
the crosses you should take
before death whispers
you need to relive now
so,crash and burn...