a useless Anger Note to the Low People

you can only wish
to have some kind of courage
you can only dream of living
like a fairy tale in a nightmare surroundings

cause you don't have what it takes to be me
you don't have the words to address the words of a king
nothing like a bug you fleet with red dots
little lightbugs with little spark

just little
cause i see through your big hat
that you forget to take off to bow
must have been your head is as little
as your little heart
that you needed to hide as low as you can

this must be said
this is a shame
but im done taking off blame from the murderer
it's time for the offender
your punishment stage is all in order

i can smile as if im nine
i could act like a ruler in my own stand
my eyes are shut, i am blind
when it comes to seeing what you hide behind
not cause i cant see right through you
it is simply that "i dont want to!"

let go of your efforts to make me small
nothing you say will make sense
cause only the true warrior see with a heart
and a rat like you wont stand a chance

so you see you cant have my pride
you cant have what you cant have
its not about luck
its about you not having any guts

cause the worthy knows that truth is rare
and only the worthy...dares!

Don't Kill The Moon

1
lying on the floor
won't make the sky fall
with the blanket on
with the saddest song
playing your mind on and on
rooted pain growing strong

***
what feel is real
don't question
even if sun up with the rain
it's still clear to see
through the breeze
that you can turn it any way around the moon
go around and be found
there's always stars shooting down
but
don't kill the moon
don't kill the moon

***

2
staring long to the space
more minutes you waste
i can swear this isn't the sight
we all wish at night
but dawn push the moon down
taking you deeper underground

3
whatever the moon want to mention
let it haze in the air
and after fog covers and torn view apart
then walk away

sept 2007

"Red Bus"

there's a little boy asking me for direction
i cant help myself but stare
wonder about the age
from his eyes

little that i say the more he shoots out confusion
he do what i do
wondering if he should ask
the next one

funny how things go
when unfamiliar stole
our precious white lies
that all is all right

did you manage to stop today
with days getting busier everyday
the ride can always be found
when you didn't come around

so take a seat
wait in line
can you make the time
for the little kid in us
riding the Red Bus

sept 2007

Dysfunctional Queen

i've been there and done that
there was you then there's regret
later i learned something right
world can reappear Mighty Might

(*)
come and see its a grandeur show
the Dysfunctional Queen let out her glow
may it blind your sight!
ill break ya with my might!
and leave you trembling wide open!

History, a mystery sometimes its trickery
what you know can never be what you see
So baby dare to touch destruction
it'll be your first construction

build your perception
darkness doesnt always hide
light at the end is not a promise
learn that her will is her lesson.

feb 8,2007
edited july 2,2007

Dream

there was a time
i thought i lost my way
looking for answers
in a familiar place

to be together forever
trying not to fall
as we fall with each other
and nothing else matters

holding hands felt so right
our life flashes across the sky
holding hands we smile at the sight
to the end of whatever

whatever turns to be over
we still try not to fall
hands starts to depart ways
about nothing that matters

then comes the time
i still lost my way
there were no answers all along
i should know
nothing live outside
a Dream.

the List

ever since this morning
the list keeps turning
changing
forcing me to fall down my knees

without a sound
it knocks me out from slumber
desperation is now gone
singing
the answering parade

how can i fight the moon and the rising sun
they agree never to let me sleep again
like a butterfly i found wonder
flying across over to be between them

without a sound
i walk away new step
awkward and familiar
sinking
rising as my armor fall off

ever since the scar speak
the list shred to pieces
hurting
healing everything, i am on my way

say way

say stay? or say hate!
say it to my one ear
say great that its too late
make,break or take
one word to save this mistake
being stupid is impossible
while you seek life for your sake
for my sake i go through it all
it's not what matters
as human as i aim to be
i am ashamed to co-exist with your existance
i write this and scream at your invincible face
"you are fake,late and never will be great!"
cause i forgave you at this precise note,
just until you reach your grave.

Impetus Rule

erase behind the center note,
split the paper in two,
half of the complications i wrote,
now clearer than when i was with you,
say it twice, more is wise,
plastic cups crushes,
i would have run foolish being nice,
my legs asleep like ashes,
no more burning,no more game,
i bang the golden cymbals,
may it caught you as you are fader,
as i have swept into motion,
my impetus,bless you,
as my sanity is now awakens.

Eye,Feel?

draw an eye,
have no fear for reflection do not lie,
it spoke;

"of the deep will not hurt,
of the dark will not swallow,
of the doom will not haunt,"

betrayal of a knife took place

eye vanish,
lost to the battalion of waves
as the sense in a senseless eye
breed vengeance through disguise

the dance will not stop!

really,reflection never lie,
spoke the eye;

"of the galaxy will i see,
of the world will i be,
of you will i seek,"

The Wall of Rose

staRe. The Wall whispers
blinK. Fear taunts
gulP. Curiousity thirst

step,slow..another

ArriVe. Curiosity bows
So Long. Fear ran away
AmaZe. The Wall pray

open,quick!..reveal!

the wall prisoned by thorns
Rose raised her palms
picking weakest feelings
of tortured aura singing

Rose traced an old place
heads rush reaching to her
Her tiny heart begin to race
her tiny palm turns gray

The Wall stand above the mountain
Singing fears of lost soldiers lost
Curious Rose sends hope in
Into them through her palm into stone

A tiny thorn kissed Rose thumb
Her whole body turns numb
The Wall cries open a thorn less space
InViting.Rose is home.

SMILE

wiggles my toes in the air
all i can do is stare
down below into your eyes
feeling so high

this abnormality
cames as a surprise to me
never knew how it comes to this
ashamed of my insanity

so i jumped off this party boat
catch a yellow safe ride
and away goes i float
into the ocean up through the air
but somehow i never feel so free
i sure smile back to me...

they say im a mess
when its time to confess
stopping the clock or break
whatever way i dont care

this loud reaction
states independence day
but i was stupid enough to hide
so i burned in my own stake

so i jumped off this party boat
catch a yellow safe ride
and away goes i float
into the ocean up through the air
but somehow i never feel so free
i sure smile back to me...

whatever gets so high
soon will have to land back
on the empty rug
a house of warm embrace

all it took just your smile for me...

(*i wrote this after i watched reruns - Smallville Season 4 : Clark Kent & Lana Lang Prom Dance)

Masquerade

masquerade

all the pretty dresses
and man's charming faces
unfortunately i'm stuck with laces
stealing smiles and blowing kisses

oh dignity it slipped out off the window
once i experience how love is
red skirts spins and shining shoes follow
golden threads on,messes quiet surface
*********************************
(*)
so you thought
the night still young
don't ever waste this delight
but don't you know
this will be pretty no more

live full tonight baby
cause tomorrow for sure
the pain will undress unmask
will you leave it all behind?
**********************************
masquerade

shining entrance up the hall
colourful gems dances below
innocence drove into the rythm
flesh in them, found coral desire

oh dreams they rush you in neverending
cause when i know less, i surrender
temptations behind the nodding angels
fantastic lies laughing to my face
(*)
**********************************
masquerade
the sensation
expectations
losing yourself is so easy
in this perfection
(*)
************************************

Where Day Belong

where do day belong
its been too long
i haven't heard my song
oh no..now i am not strong
***
oh i've tried and i've fight and i've tried
pull me out of this tide
open the door i ain't staying no more
go to where day belong
that's where i want to be...
***
how much will time take
i feel that all is such fake
when will i get my chance
to fix all of my mistakes
***
oh i've tried and i've fight and i've tried
pull me out of this tide
open the door i ain't staying no more
go to where day belong
that's where i want to be...
***
hard i wish all is just a dream
that soon i will wake and all went away
but no,its where day belong
after we hurt then we start to move on
***

crash and burn

insanity feeds anamoly
less than that
it prisoned our intellection

feel free...

cause time will not tell
the crosses that you would dare
when death whispers...
it caught you,defenseless
crashed and burned...

so bind time defeat arrogance
faster than light
fallen by the darkman's artifice

feel you...

cause time will not tell
the crosses that you would dare
when death whispers...
it ripped you,effortless
crashed and burned...

awake and decide
you'll never loose your faith
fist yourself hard
to fall in the land of grace
unveil,extricate and rectify...
crash and burn...

cause time barely unravels
the crosses you should take
before death whispers
you need to relive now
so,crash and burn...

Am I (the right kind)

~for the unheard voices~

she own two soft hands...am i the right kind
he have perfect taste in fashion...am i the right kind
despite that we're kinda genius..am i the right kind

am i acceptable

so i go on listing if i ever be the right kind
and i never ever lied..am i perfect for this kind
oh i wish it..is it enough to show that i am right

am i exceptional

sing...
am i the right kind
sing...oo sing..
am i the right one

to be loved and be cared
to be helped when im down


but i walk bare feet..ground cuts and it never felt nice
no sound when i speak..questions in screams are not nice at all
when i die..its the same feeling...its never kind

am i invincible

sing...
i am the right kind
sing...oo sing...
i am the damn right one

to be loved and be cared
to be helped when im down

oooo...i am...and i am...
i am

(p.s: i dont usually explains what i write..as long as its like seeds that grows through perceptions..but this one i wrote when i thought of victims of wars,hopeless young generations who never had the chance to seek dreams and be whoever they want to be..then again feel free to see whatever you felt like...)

Come What May

hello down under
here we go again
there's more to discover?
great view of Mountain Pain

stay in child
greet cloud's lullaby
sing its song..."come what may"
come what may

when i was a young one
i laughed at mistaken grace
never knew what's going on
i bow when Earth forsakes

stay in child
greet cloud's lullaby
sing its song..."come what may"
come what may

suddenly land decides
to let loose its freedom's right
you will see its face
that you thought was grace

soon they'll be nothing
absolutely nothing
then you'll start to...
pray

oh come what may
no matter how far away
oh Sea of Broken Dreams
open your heart to me