Pretty Pretender

You, make it less than it ought to be,
a shining starry night.
You, make more from a memory,
dreaming every time sun shines.

but you don't know that it's all right,
to have it all, pain and happiness,
did not need to hide it all inside,
or turn this world exactly how you want.

let them see your eyes,
where true beauty lies,
it would make more soul restless,
and make the pain painless.

Love in J Note

i am one among the stars
i shine too
without me, one intensity is lost
leaving the night
one blank space
lifeless

i am one among the stars
i see too
below me, there's one dimming light
looking into night
shooting wishes
hope in living

i love God more
as i know less
i love God more
as i fall
i love God more
as i see distance
but i love God more
as i feel the presence
forever

i love you more
if you are for me
maybe the stars
align differently
perfectly

Dream

there was a time
i thought i lost my way
looking for answers
in a familiar place

to be together forever
trying not to fall
as we fall with each other
and nothing else matters

holding hands felt so right
our life flashes across the sky
holding hands we smile at the sight
to the end of whatever

whatever turns to be over
we still try not to fall
hands starts to depart ways
about nothing that matters

then comes the time
i still lost my way
there were no answers all along
i should know
nothing live outside
a Dream.

SMILE

wiggles my toes in the air
all i can do is stare
down below into your eyes
feeling so high

this abnormality
cames as a surprise to me
never knew how it comes to this
ashamed of my insanity

so i jumped off this party boat
catch a yellow safe ride
and away goes i float
into the ocean up through the air
but somehow i never feel so free
i sure smile back to me...

they say im a mess
when its time to confess
stopping the clock or break
whatever way i dont care

this loud reaction
states independence day
but i was stupid enough to hide
so i burned in my own stake

so i jumped off this party boat
catch a yellow safe ride
and away goes i float
into the ocean up through the air
but somehow i never feel so free
i sure smile back to me...

whatever gets so high
soon will have to land back
on the empty rug
a house of warm embrace

all it took just your smile for me...

(*i wrote this after i watched reruns - Smallville Season 4 : Clark Kent & Lana Lang Prom Dance)

Leave Me Be

would you like to
be the rain
for the love of falling down

or would you like me
to forgive you
for the sake we can move on

but now i dont feel the same
without you
its no science

im angry im hurt im lost
without you
its the heart

and i dont feel like talking
and fix this
its impossible

cause i like to
be a mess
for the need to find the rest

so i leave you
for destruction
maybe not but i dont care

here in my own skin
watch the fire burnt out
through the night...

head over heels

r u tempted to figure out
wats inside my heart

r u crazy to take me out
where moon shines creates art

is it too hard not to see
how your eyes look at me

coz its pretty scary to me
that i cant breathe when u speak

too much waves
heavy rain start falling
wash me away to a place
what seems to be safe

in here
out there
so small
no air

take me flying
floating above the clouds
white wind
soft voice

when im done being happy
catch me
when im in your arms
keep me
when im out of my head
save me
when im scared
hold my hand
when i say i love you
marry me

what more should i say?
im yours.

i remember you

when there's a blank space
i see you
when i see myself in the mirror
i see you

staring at the starry sky
again i see you
imagining my unborn child
their faces like you

too clear
too deep
too hard
too late

this is how i see you
in my wake
in my dream
like a blind man who sees with their heart

the more i see you the better
coz all i ever wanted now..
is to erase every pieces of you
coz i dont want you anymore.

do you see?

under the bed
under the table
under the tree

behind the bench
behind the door
behind the tree

in the room
in the car
in the tree

can't u see?
im waiting
can't u hear?
im listening
can't u love me?
im yours.