what i do not know

i want to close my eyes and be able to see rain
how it falls and how magically it appears to be
i want the silence to be peaceful coz i wonder
where's the beautiful melody that can save me
i want to walk smoothly on the white beach
but when its time for winter to go, summer hasnt reached

honestly i dont know what to know
i dont remember how words flow
time pass by as slow as snow
oh soon ill grow but i dont think so

i want to tipped my fingers on the sheet of sky
release a falling star come crashing into my heart
i want to sing softly to entertain the wind
and let myself blown away to the open windows
i want a perfect drum sound welcoming my entrance
so i could pretend that i am alive

i dont know what to know
i dont remember how words flow
time pass by as slow as snow
oh soon ill grow but i dont think so

will i recall the truth in time
did i knew that i meant to it
have i fly that far
oh turn around and run..run..run

coz i dont know what to know
i dont remember which word flow
time pass by as slow as snow
oh soon ill grow but i dont think so

i dont think so

closed door

a day is done you feel you've won
i believe its gonna end soon
you savour your meal like gold
and made you a king

behind closed doors
you kept the bad
telling yourself that
those hands are saved

little precious believe she's happy
i believe its gonna be summer soon
but she said she's not ready
to be called a queen

i can see through the door
chaos grew everywhere
nothing in your heart i cant see
oh hidden behind those closed doors

same songs rewinding
all questions starts here
the more you throw away
the less you're getting

open the door
and step outside
the universe calls for you

on my own

life is charmed
i have a charmed life
yeah!

so stop looking over my shoulder
i still lie under the same sky
yeah!

i just want to find my own way to live
to be better..on my own

life is a connection
you me we have a relation
yeah!

so i rock your world
dont worry you rock mine too
yeah!

but i just want to find my own way to stay alive
to be better..on my own

so dont you treat me like a child
we all still have little innocence
oh,i am alone
yeah
but im not lonely
no

so leave me be i want to find my way home
to be a Hero..on my own

my Idioms

the ocean rattles
whatever made it feels
should the anchor be unleashed

a ghost stand on the other side
haunting to be seen
even presence in an old picture in an old house

crossover the river
battles the deep forest land
befriend the myth of the old predator making it a kin

flowers turn to black paper
its ashes crackles are defeaning
but it never wake the sleeping beauty

so could you stand?
could you stand?
could you stand?
could you?
anyone?
could you stand?

im not me

im not the enemy
im just a puppet without strings
im a total independent

i dont want to scare you off
im just trying to get it on to start
my life without regrets

maybe ive been like a rock tht dont move
maybe all i need is someone to break it through
to get inside my head
to get inside my heart
see the insane ive been retained

are you ready now?
are you?

im not a cold hardcore death
im just inside this ice cube hall
yearning to be burned

i hope you wont run off
to play in never never land
where i could never go

take me away with you
lead me to the bright sun
where i can see the whole universe

lead me by
by you

Cycle of Today

what to write today?
my day is worst
not to mention my hair too
ive been cracking up my mood

what to feel today?
i havent wake up from an early sleep last night
sun is high up and about to come down
my eyes focusing on the ceiling

what to do today?
i walk around in the city
watching people walk by
and counting my steps from home to the coffee cafe and back

what to think today?
listen to rocking tunes beating up my sorrow
making me angry inside
kicking to burst open the door

what is today?
a cycle of worthless words
a cycle of emotionless emotion
a cycle of routine
a cycle of boredom

what is tomorrow?
a day to break the cycle of today!

5.59pm,18july.wgtn.

shouldnt go there

come closer
yes you
dont look around
im talking to you

come to me
yes that's it
dont care about others
my arms are here

yes im dark
and the noise is behind you
why go there?
when you can see here?

im not twisting
there's no lie
everything is right here
believe me, i know

closer..yes closer
just follow me
take my hand

we're going to neverland