of seeing what's here

sitting on the wonder chair
tired of playing fair
have we reach that far
becoming less than who we are

once in a while we stand still
waved away brave men set sail
in time is there time to prevail
what's good and needed to exhale

do we know how to see?
i desperately needed to be
one who knows that its here
dont you wanna join me,and feel
what's real in this journey

do you mind being the one
to tell me that its this season
that i had conquered and won
later its ok to let little things be gone

if the sun will keep on shining
i understand its not yet the ending
but will we ever appreciate the living
comes the end whats left is this yearning

do we know how to see?
i desperately needed to be
one who knows that its here
dont you wanna join me,and feel
what's real in this journey

how lovely this words play
dreams that never meant to astray
setting the sail back to the way
come what may...

Leave Me Be

would you like to
be the rain
for the love of falling down

or would you like me
to forgive you
for the sake we can move on

but now i dont feel the same
without you
its no science

im angry im hurt im lost
without you
its the heart

and i dont feel like talking
and fix this
its impossible

cause i like to
be a mess
for the need to find the rest

so i leave you
for destruction
maybe not but i dont care

here in my own skin
watch the fire burnt out
through the night...

"oh freedom" (Tribute to the real Muslim Fighters)

cant hug the same tree like 10 years ago
old kettles aint an antique then
we wait for spaceship to land now
soon a package to galaxy cost less

funny these thought sounds then
yet we put war in front of the door
people are crazy they beat themselves
just to prove that IQ are higher than value

what am i crapping about
less facts unnecessary stress
but those little things which we shut our eyes
escape and shield our warmth

i saw places burned on tv
yet im scared to break a silence
stupid pathetic arrogant weak
but no not cruel

aint it the same thing?

silence drive the road back to the past
where freedom desperately being fought
now..once again.
oh freedom Allah blessed us all with
we destroy!
its 12.35am
every minute is a chance
of freedom to be lost
or freedom to be protected
we pray!
we learn!
we prepare!
we wake!
we love!

understand?

to heal

closet's door restless
disturb by the open view
wind angry senseless
to the world it blew

where to begin
what's the best to move on
from this bitterness inside
when fired might kill
yet in the end it supposed to heal

beautiful waves
disaster's craves
to collect the lost souls
and leave the rest to learn

where to begin
what's the best to move on
from this bitterness inside
when fired might kill
yet do i really know the end heals?

this life works
such an inspiration such tragedy
it took everything
but it gives everything back that's good in me

Become

do we know to save the life
of people next to us
when hope is far
and lies are what we are

i feel today
i can't find the words to say
what i meant
i feel alone

that there's something tinkling inside
drumming in my head up right
the music in this soul is crying
release
and become

c/o:
so say the words,
become you its all there is to it
to believe
that life becomes what you seek
be true
become you...

do i know what song to sing
when people wants to dance
when my wonder kept on wander
and im lost without a sense

of what i feel today
i can't find the words to say
what i meant
i feel alone
**c/o

release and become
release the tinkles and the drums
let music play a part and become
words...
words...
words...

Forever New

i conciously mapped out
the path of the branches
crosses and twists
and make a new world

underwater beats
humming slow and softly
until music sleeps
seemingly forever beneath

what ties together?
new age and deceitful forever?
both lies masked by truth
both dies sooner than youth

simple apart and together

i smiled at you and bid you goodbye
then all my tears fall down from my eyes
if there's a chance for me to stay with you
i know that i wont take it even if i want to

but this you know and i know too
we understood what we must do
and those time when we're apart
another life soon will start

until the time that meant to be
look out the window and we can see
each others dreams are folds together
forever in stars that gathers

this path we promised to walk in
will cross soon and meet us back in
then my tears years ago will be gone
and you will smile at me and say we have won

in between

there's only sky above that covers you
there's only land below that carry you
and in between are
seas that sink you in,
forests that lost you in,
and people,they turn you upside down

you can fly with wings of dream
you can sleep deeper in the underground
but in between are
dreams that become real
sleep that you can wake up from
and people,they learn to love to live

everyday, in between
everything, in between
all i'll be and all you'll be
all are in between
you and me

a wanderer

when clouds gather as one,
storm will knock the tree
a wanderer beneath,
his pencil dance,then later he reads,
and the earth listens to him
flowers and long grass bow to agree,
birds above share their beauty,
way up high, he gaze afar
whether a glimpse of heaven
through storm then beyond clouds,
if he could hold,
that the hope he wrote,
do exist.

wish i could stay

a lonely chair i sat to think
and on and on i sat on it
in a bus,a plane or train
looking all so innocent

a wooden flute i wish to hear
and on and on i try to play
in my hands its turning cold
looking all used and old

a paper boat i hope it float
and on and on it sail away
in a park with little pond
looking fragile and in grace

wish i could stay...

but color crayons i see myself
and on and on it play around
the paper cry it will be tore
looking full or beautiful?

wish i could stay...
wish i could stay...
wish i could,
stay...

Color of Crayons

do you wanna be blue
be like the dolphins
or be gloom
do you like yellow
sunflowers swifts slow
or roots stuck below
do you prefer green
trees becoming mountains
or swamps that look mean
do you see red
be the same as blood
or keep away from the siren
do you consider black and white
be certain
or be grey
do other colors play too
be morphed into uniqueness
or be aliens

collect all color of crayons you like
make your masterpiece

the Inside

i look out from the inside
my heart's taken out from inside
wind blows colder in the inside
my body freezes

i stepped out from the inside
edens left alone in the inside
fairies lost to the inside
my body freezes

angels take the inside away
night asleep in the inside
wide desert of an inside
cant see any way

give me back my inside
i cant be right

change

the sky has been torn apart
and all the stars are falling down on me
other planets lost their color
and so does my dream

things are changing
it teach us how to breathe
in time where death appears

so i fall down on my knees
closed my eyes and start to breathe
and stars are all i see
they drowned in the deep black sea

then i wake up from the dream
float above the sea
looking down on my feet
now all the stars are shining up to me

things are changing
soon ill glow too bright
in time where there's no light

so i fall down on my knees
closed my eyes and start to breathe
and stars are all i see
they drowned in the deep black sea

but time comes in
and change me...

what i do not know

i want to close my eyes and be able to see rain
how it falls and how magically it appears to be
i want the silence to be peaceful coz i wonder
where's the beautiful melody that can save me
i want to walk smoothly on the white beach
but when its time for winter to go, summer hasnt reached

honestly i dont know what to know
i dont remember how words flow
time pass by as slow as snow
oh soon ill grow but i dont think so

i want to tipped my fingers on the sheet of sky
release a falling star come crashing into my heart
i want to sing softly to entertain the wind
and let myself blown away to the open windows
i want a perfect drum sound welcoming my entrance
so i could pretend that i am alive

i dont know what to know
i dont remember how words flow
time pass by as slow as snow
oh soon ill grow but i dont think so

will i recall the truth in time
did i knew that i meant to it
have i fly that far
oh turn around and run..run..run

coz i dont know what to know
i dont remember which word flow
time pass by as slow as snow
oh soon ill grow but i dont think so

i dont think so

closed door

a day is done you feel you've won
i believe its gonna end soon
you savour your meal like gold
and made you a king

behind closed doors
you kept the bad
telling yourself that
those hands are saved

little precious believe she's happy
i believe its gonna be summer soon
but she said she's not ready
to be called a queen

i can see through the door
chaos grew everywhere
nothing in your heart i cant see
oh hidden behind those closed doors

same songs rewinding
all questions starts here
the more you throw away
the less you're getting

open the door
and step outside
the universe calls for you

on my own

life is charmed
i have a charmed life
yeah!

so stop looking over my shoulder
i still lie under the same sky
yeah!

i just want to find my own way to live
to be better..on my own

life is a connection
you me we have a relation
yeah!

so i rock your world
dont worry you rock mine too
yeah!

but i just want to find my own way to stay alive
to be better..on my own

so dont you treat me like a child
we all still have little innocence
oh,i am alone
yeah
but im not lonely
no

so leave me be i want to find my way home
to be a Hero..on my own

my Idioms

the ocean rattles
whatever made it feels
should the anchor be unleashed

a ghost stand on the other side
haunting to be seen
even presence in an old picture in an old house

crossover the river
battles the deep forest land
befriend the myth of the old predator making it a kin

flowers turn to black paper
its ashes crackles are defeaning
but it never wake the sleeping beauty

so could you stand?
could you stand?
could you stand?
could you?
anyone?
could you stand?

im not me

im not the enemy
im just a puppet without strings
im a total independent

i dont want to scare you off
im just trying to get it on to start
my life without regrets

maybe ive been like a rock tht dont move
maybe all i need is someone to break it through
to get inside my head
to get inside my heart
see the insane ive been retained

are you ready now?
are you?

im not a cold hardcore death
im just inside this ice cube hall
yearning to be burned

i hope you wont run off
to play in never never land
where i could never go

take me away with you
lead me to the bright sun
where i can see the whole universe

lead me by
by you

Cycle of Today

what to write today?
my day is worst
not to mention my hair too
ive been cracking up my mood

what to feel today?
i havent wake up from an early sleep last night
sun is high up and about to come down
my eyes focusing on the ceiling

what to do today?
i walk around in the city
watching people walk by
and counting my steps from home to the coffee cafe and back

what to think today?
listen to rocking tunes beating up my sorrow
making me angry inside
kicking to burst open the door

what is today?
a cycle of worthless words
a cycle of emotionless emotion
a cycle of routine
a cycle of boredom

what is tomorrow?
a day to break the cycle of today!

5.59pm,18july.wgtn.

shouldnt go there

come closer
yes you
dont look around
im talking to you

come to me
yes that's it
dont care about others
my arms are here

yes im dark
and the noise is behind you
why go there?
when you can see here?

im not twisting
there's no lie
everything is right here
believe me, i know

closer..yes closer
just follow me
take my hand

we're going to neverland

1 minute

hey 1 minute
u think u can hide?

left it all tied up with your fate
kept me choked in the box of waste

im not carving the box
im not making it home

lived by your will power
u think u had won?

still waiting for the ancient weapon
while u feed my soul

1 minute
u still here
u still here
u still here

3pm,room,wgtn

Orange Leaves

"Orange Leaves"

its not time for you yet
dont change for me
be you be green
its what ive been longing to see

as i pass by as time flies
as the earth stays
as the sky covers me safe

the feel of knowing
of me wanting to see you as a painting of a tree
while the wall is falling bringing it with

so much i would miss the color green
yet i am so stunned by the orange leaves

as i pass by as time flies
as the earth stays
as the sky covers me safe

the orange leaves tree replaced
the very existance of the green painting

the feel now of knowing
that orange leaves dont stay

i will keep orange leaves close to my heart
and when it all falls dead to the ground
as goes my heart too
deep deep in my soul
orange leaves....................lives...

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